How fast the time goes

It's quite sad that my last post was Dec. 15.

Four months into the new year, it seems I haven't had much time for anything else. I read my words and perspectives from just a few months before, and it's humbling. Here's an excerpt from a previous post:

"So, now I am on a conscious ongoing mission, to nurture my relationships, with not only my new husband, but with my family and friends. I need to pick up the phone and call the friend I've been putting off talking to. I need to drive over to my parents' place and see how they're doing. I need to spend time with my sister. I need to call my big sis in AZ. Oh, yeah, there's the family dog at my parents' place who is sorely in need of a walk.

I went to mass this past Sunday and I had a Judy Blume moment where I asked, "Are you there, God? It's me, Hazel. Yup, I know we haven't talked in awhile..."

I need to nurture the relationship with myself. finish that book I've been putting off reading. I need to actively pursue my life's goals and ambitions..."

So how have I done? Well, it's safe to say that I've ventured deeper into that hermit cave that I was so determined to make my way out of. My social balance that I was so sure to keep at a healthy level, has teetered so far into the "work" side.

My family and friends think that I have disappeared. It's not because I've wanted to. Not to blame the job or the career...Ok, I definitely think things could change....but I think it's up to me to figure out what to and how to fix this, because I don't think the calvary is going to save me from this funk.

1) I still enjoy my job. I am still grateful to be a journalist. I'm still figuring this thing out, and I have so much ambition and ideas. Sure, sometimes the frustration of a startup can get to me, but I'm determined not to let it beat me down...even when I've come close... many times. I have goals, and I am going to achieve them. But I am not going to foresake those more important to me -- family, my husband, my friends, my sanity -- to achieve them.

2) I can't let this become my life. I can't let anything consume me. I know my priorities, and although my career is important, it never should get in the way of family, friends, my health, my mind... I just have to learn when to let go. As one colleague said, "I've learned not to care as much, and things got so much better."

So my monthly goals? Before, they were so much more lofty -- like traveling to my next exotic destination, writing my first book. Right now I'm just focused on the simple things (and then hopefully work my up to the lofty stuff).
1) Sleep well
2) Eat well
3) Get down an exercise routine (yep, the marathon training? A casualty of this hectic new job)
4) Read a book (I don't think I've finished a non-work related book since my work web site launched)
5) Visit and communicate with my friends and family more.
6) Go to church regularly
7) Cook at least one new recipe
8) Walk the dog
9) Enjoy life


Not too much to ask, is it?

Is it?